Re-cap

Let's see what had happened this year, 2011.

Probably this is going to be a loooong post.

Notice that I typed 'probably', that's is because I'm not sure, hehe.

So back in January 2011.

1. Waiting for O'Level result (As an up-graders a.k.a repeater)

2. Online shopping a lot.

3. Playing It Girl on Facebook - addicted.

4. Eat a lot.

5. Didn't even meet for a date.

6. Join in Youth and Sports, Tutong.

7. Went for Scout's lessons every Friday.

February 2011.

1. Got my result - total up, I scored 5 O's;

Bahasa Melayu, English Language, Biology, Chemistry and Mathematics

*I'm pretty proud for my last 3 subjects*

2. Register for Sixth Form in ****

3. Back and forth to school a lot.

4. Browse the website about colleges in Brunei.

5. Experienced the first harsh & rude orientation ever.

March 2011

1. Continued attending the orientation - till 5th March.

2. 3rd March - Gone through the worst misunderstanding ever with my boyfriend.

3. 6th March - Cried for the relationship that was just gone.

4. Went to Miri for the for the second time - with ITB pupils.

5. Had the first camp with Youth and Sports in Danau.

6. Applying to join in **** College.

7. Lied comes and go but stays cool.

8. Graduated as a Squire Scout.

9. Re-union gathering for 5E (Repeaters, class of 2010)

April 2011

1. Went for an interview to go to the college.

2. Got my Scout Drill certificate.

3. Fight fight fight!

4. In love with Biology

May 2011

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June 2011

1. Sat for GP progress test

July 2011

1. Accepted to join to the college.

2. Apply to stay in the hostel.

3. Found new friends.

August 2011

1. Babyboo's birthday - 09th August

2. Dayang Norsalikin & Mursyidan's birthday - 10th August

3. Babyboo's fathers' birthday - 19th August

4. In love with Mathematics.

September 2011

1. Received allowance for the first time ($210) 0.0

2. Short test! Short test! Short test!

October 2011

1. My birthday - 31st Oct c:

November 2011

1. Phase Test 1

(Maths, Program Design, Computer System & Maintenance, English and Information System)

2. Looking forward for upcoming holiday.

3. Received assignments

(Program Design, Multimedia, Office Application)

4. Izyani's birthday - 10th Nov

December 2011

1. HOLIDAY!

2. Hand-in assignment (information System)

3. Ready for Multimedia assignment

4. Awaiting for school to re-open..

5. 4th year anniversary - 31st Dec 2011

6. Have a new background for this blog

That's the end, I'll see you soon.

Lots of Y!

c:

I'm full of jealousy.. Dinda pen-jeles syang, I'm so sorry.. :'(

Being in relationship or what we simply call "dating" for almost 4 years is one the best thing that I'm going through now. Things comes in and out of my head. No matter how bad things goes up and down, we're still together, Alhamdulillah.

What worries me is, by the end of the day either ending up together or ending up separately, one of them will come. Like my boyfriend love to say "Kita hanya mampu merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan". He had been in a relationship for more than 3 years before, but in the end it didn't work.. And I'm afraid. I'm confident that we can do this but we didn't know what HE already planned for us..

But again, even though I'm afraid, words usually comes in my mind..

"Kalau sudah jodoh, memang inda kemana"

"Kita hanya mampu merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan"

"If you fail, that means HE knows you're strong to overcome it"

I'm praying for something, Amin..

:)

Y98

Copy & Paste from an anonymous twitter account.

I miss you. We've had a lot of rough times in the past, but I'll always ℒℴѵℯ you. No one can change that. ♥

ILOVEYOU! ILOVEYOU! ILOVEYOU! I love my boyfriend so muchoo~ XD I loveyou sayang, muwahx! =p Awangku Azzuri <3

Missing In Action

So it has been days, we didn't communicate with each other. He is busy with work.. Or probably has gone to Kota Kinabalu, who knows where he is.

I'm expecting a message from him, giving me a 12 pin-code numbers, well credit card numbers. But I think I have to buy it on my own? He probably forget the existence of me since he is very busy.. But thinking about it wouldn't it be too much, didn't even contact me for 3 days.

But I'm not going to say anything about it because I did it before, I didn't text him for 3 days before, so I think I got the revenge back.. You don't actually call it revenge though..

Hmm :/ I'm missing him too much. And I just hate crying like crazy, acting like everything is okay but inside, its killing. I miss you like crazy..

Welcome November!

Its 5th November already, so, SAY WHAT?? Happy belated birthday to me :D well, in case you don't know, my birthday falls on every 31st October. What day is it? It's Halloween! Like seriously, I miss Halloween so much! Trick or Treats, most of the time kids choose Treats. Yeah, sweets, caramel, apple candy. Hmm! Yummy baby!

But anyway, I got Toblerone Chocolate as well as Hazelnut Cadbury and a tea cup. Basically I received them from Little Syikin, Rafi (my class representative) and last but not least Bibi. Sweet present, sweet memories <3

And and and, I wore a black and white printed baju kurung, I loooike it so much boo. It was a simple common baju kurung, no additional style at all but it made my day, plus my baju kurung and his shirt is the same colour. Aww~ Sweet. <3 <3

On Tuesday, which was 1st November 2011, I got a big surprise from the whole class - ? Hehe.. They surprise me with a coffee flavored cake, from Loft. Hehehe, they

didn't want to tell me where did they bought it but I figured it out at last, bwahahaha!

Love you guys!

But too bad, Yazid, Yatul & Lijah weren't attending the school on that day :(

Iloveyou..

Friday 07th October 2011, 21.36hours / 9.36pm.

I'm at home, sitting in my room. Waiting for any messages, from my boyfriend, I know he has been very busy.. I'm out of credit, so if he text me, I won't be able to reply his message. Imisshim already :( But what to do, hmm. He has been busy with work, me too with my assignments.

Staying at home in a while make me feel that we're close to each other, cause his house is just few minutes away. Even-though we're not that far, we didn't really meet that often.

I should be in my hostel at the moment but, I want to stay at home and enjoy my dinner with my very own siblings. Because every Saturday when I went back home, I will automatically switch off my brain and wake up at 8-9am in the next morning which is on Sunday. Then around 4.30pm in the afternoon I'll be back at my hostel. So throughout the day I won't really meet my family.

This Sunday, which is the day after tomorrow, he will be around BSB watching a Ping-Pong match. I want to come along with him..

Hmm:( Imissyou, Azzuri a.k.a Awie.. :') Iloveyou.. "kalau nada apapa, ada Dinda mseg syang besok ait. Mat malam.."

Right.. This blog has been abandoned for about 2 months. The last update was on 31st July t and today is 26th September.

It's now 3.43pm, I am currently in my college, CIT department in Lab 2, with the others - my classmates ND/CST/036. We had just done our very first assignment - and pass it up - which is from the Multimedia & Web Design unit. To be specific our assignment is to create a total of 3 magazine covers of our own chosen magazine.

Let me post one here :))

Just one. And bye~

Confuse..

12.29pm @ Resource Center Lab 1

I'm afraid to be single, I'm afraid to lose him, Awangku Azzuri. I do not want to lose him, but I'm so stupid for not listening to him at the very first time. He is there for me but I'm so stubborn.

I do not even know if we still in relationship. I'm starting to miss him, as usual, I miss everyday. while he is looking for me, I'm looking for him as well, but what can we do except for passion to see each other.

The last time I when to see him was on 24th July 2011 at WyWy Restaurant, Tutong. He was wearing black, just woke up so his eyes were kind of reddish, due to lack of rest. For the rest of the day, I went to his house. Babu wasn't around but Babah was there, sleeping. So we did not want to interrupt his way to dreamland. But atleast he know I was there.

Afterall, my point is, Imissyou :'( Azzuri.. It's my fault though.

06th July '11 @ 20.56hours

I'm sleepy, my eyes just wanna close since 6pm/18.00hours just now. I'm sooooooo sleeping, like seriously I wanna sleep, NOW! Thinking of lying down on my bed, I pictured my boyfriend in my mind. He is always in my mind. He is out of credit card, so we can't really communicate right now. But I know he miss me so much just like I miss him. He is full of passion, and he do really teach me to be passion.

I move to MTSSR starting from 04th July 2011 onwards. The college is really big, just like my previous school.

*I will continue later on. Cause I wanna sleep now. * Good night. Malam syang, suamiku, belalang-man ku, awangku Azzuri. emmuwahx! :p

15.40hours @ Lab 5..

So let me continue my journal. I applied to live at the hostel, and that makes me have more than one orientation. I got my college orientation, college department orientation and lastly my hostel orientation. So far, two were already complete. coming next is my hostel orientation..

Got some new friends, frankly saying all of the are new friends. Not only the same intake as mine, but also the seniors. At which it makes me a little bit more comfortable to be here..

Don't..

Don't let me go..

I face all the circumstances, sequences, problems, matters with you to get you back,

and now you are letting me go, ONCE AGAIN?

You don't have to go, Iloveyou Awie.. :'(

Wiewie.. 98 Y

To my..

To my beloved cousin brother,

Hairul Helmi bin Taha

11.3.1988 - 26.6.2011

23 years old

May God bless you..

I hope you gather your happiness in the heaven..

let's go googling (www.google.com.bn)

Love98.

Got this from someone tumbler.

" SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO - The Lion

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo’s problem becomes everyone’s problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun.. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward."

Me : I'm a GREAT kisser.
My Boyfriend : He's a great kisser -AS WELL!

Awie! IMISSYOURKISS! :(

09 June, '11 22.33 hours. Thursday.

Where is my boyfriend :( I misshim. Huhuu he didn't answer my call. Since 6pm till now, which is 10.35pm.. Hmm. Well, good night suamiku, Azzuri =)

<3

I arranged a date with my other half. The last time we met was on 23rd March '11 and this next date is on 13th May '11, which is last Friday and today is Sunday. I just wanted to have a tea break with him and I'm craving for "cucur ubi" or better known as "bowsprit" - maybe.

I'm the first one who came to our venue, the place was cold, I bet he will have a flu. The waitress gave me the menu and I said I'll place my order later cause I'm waiting for someone.

He came about 9 to 13 minutes after that. He was wearing black tee & the black pant he usually wore, simple pair of sandals. I was wearing green tee and black pant as well, on heels. He sat next to me and he smell so nice. So good. So alluring. So intimate. So sexy! =P

Ahh~ boyfriend, you know I'm melting beside you. Hehehe shhh.

So, back to the main story. He said he just took a bath before coming there. Before, he was asleep, ahh~ so cute :))

We asked the waitress to take our orders, he ordered his favourite "Mee Hailam" and "Nasi Goreng Chicken Sausage" for me, then our drinks, as usual the "Cincau Susu" ermmph.., slurping.
The couple next to our table just left the restaurant so we move to that table, it's more private and I love it, hehe.

There was a fly flying on top of his meal, then we kind of like swinging our hand over the meals so the fly would fly away, but it didn't! Arghhhh~ That fly land on my boyfriend's meal, WHAAAAT?!
So we decided to gave it back to the waitress and my boyfriend realised that there's something on my drink, so we gave it back to the waitress as well.

He got his meal back and I got my drink back, more 'clean' this time. So we started to eat them. I fed him some of my meal and then I kissed his upper hand, and he said 'Ea bagus, lap mulut.' Hahaha. No baby, I am just missing you too much-oo!

We went to buy his car fuels. And parked at the back of HH and I hugged him. He hugged back.. I just can not imagine if I will not meet him again, huhu. I land my head on his chest and hugged him tightly. I put my head down so that he will not see me if I were to be cry. Just after a moment, I cried. Tears dropped. I wipe them with my fingers. I guess he looked down, and saw the tears on my fingers. And said 'nadawah.. Awie main-main sja' he hugged again. There was more tears flowing down from my eyes and touched his clothes.

He hugged tightly. I miss that hug.. :(

Then, I realise it is time for me to go home. So I asked him to drive me back to the previous place where we met. He then parked near its' area and I kissed him! Shake & kiss his hand, last but not least I kiss his forehead, cheeks.

Before I left, I realise he is staring at my lips! That was sexy!

Till then.

..

Things weren't as good as I thought during April. But things got better now. Hope it will goes on, Amin.. If God's will.

I had done my interview last 28th April, Thursday. Quite, hmm.. I don't know. I heard they said 'We wrongly choose her then.', and I was like .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. Then I already know that I won't get the chance to join that particular college. Seems like I'll have to continue my sixth form. Erghh..

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Well anyway, I miss out a post. Hehee. I met my boyfriend for the first time this year, last 23rd March 2011. He's so mature looking in his working suit, over-all suit? Is that what you call that over-all clothes? Ngeeh. His over-all was in gray colour, he still got his side long hair, you know, the hair below your ears, he's so sexy with them :P at last we do locked! That lips, a beautiful moment.. Hmm lovely, muwahh!

I loveyou baby.. My baby boo Awie..
<3 98

April 14, 2011 - 20.46hours

Waiting for my Awie sayang to leave me a missed call or perhaps a message. Hehaa. Ohh, I miss him so much. I want to kiss him :P *like, seriously I'm in love with him - Azzuri* ~ Wie~ I call him my monster. Cause when he's angry, I might become sooo small like an ant.

Sayang,~ Im sorry cari klaei sja aite. Ilobiu bah!! Huuu~ Imissyou more, mcam chipsmore.

My love, Awangku Azzuri, ILOVEYOUU! ~
Imissyou so muuch :(

Thursday, 03rd April '11 @ 18:39 Brunei time.

I can hear the Azan prayers now. Allah huakhbar, Allah huakhbar, Allah huakhbar. Alhamdulillah.

So, I haven't update this blog quite long. Just yesterday I posted up the one which I saved as my drafts for about 1 to 2 weeks?

Since 28th February '11, I had joined in the Sixth Form at this particular school. Quite fun though, to be a student again. The orientation somehow quite harsh enough, just because it is an orientation. Right after the orientation, things goes like usual.

Got some crazy, gay, friendly, helpful and lovely friends. However, I love to walk around the school alone, just to release my stress, since I don't volunteer myself to join these sixth form thingy. Since I know it education is quite important, so I just.., kind of, forcing myself to do it..

I took my most favourite subject, Biology. Others, Economics, Sociology and of course General Paper..
- My classroom : Gross. The fan, so old style. No tiles, just cement. Well, not furnished enough, eh?
- Biology laboratory : the benches seems quite old. Not smart, got some crap writing on it.. And about the tap water, not all of them is functioning.
- Sociology classroom : Got an air-conditioner, okay, that's good. Got a toilet at the back, but yuck! It smells so baddddd~ and this particular classroom, wasn't a classroom at all. It is just like a kitchen.
- Economic classroom : Got an air-conditioner as well, but it's in the middle of two classroom, so the noises makes me uncomfortable, I can't focus really well, but at home I try to re-read & re-cap on my own.
General Paper classroom : just like my classroom. And my table got some creepy stupid drawing. Damn.


I can say life change a bit, I think I'm back to nerdy. Haha, I love that. But anyway, I found a new friend, Ummayy. I like her hair-style, that retro style. Hehaa, fit her 110%.

She's gorgeous eh? Yeaa.


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There's an old time saying ;

"Flirt like a butterfly,
stings like a bee"

whereabouts.

I miss my boyfriend a lot. Huhuu~
I wish to meet him.
Sleep with him.
Kiss him :p

<3 Awangku Azzuri